Came across an old playlist on my iTunes and as I looked at the different songs on there I realized something. They’re a conglomeration of the roller coaster of feelings that I have gone through in the last 4 years. Going to go through it and see what happens since this always seems to be a good stress reliever. Warning: it might get messy.
Augustana - Sweet & Low
NOT the song I wanted to start with. This immediately reminds me of my friend Brent Woodward who committed suicide. I don’t know why, but the night I learned of his passing I listened to this song on the ride home. From then on, I am immediately taken back to that exact moment. My brother driving and two of my best friends in the back. When I heard this song, it all became real. I had lost one of my best friends in the world. Every time I hear this song it reminds me of him. But the good times with him, not particularly that night. I always remember that life is fleeting and that it can be taken from anyone at any time, even by that very person.
Counting Crows - Anna Begins
Probably one of my favorite songs off of one of my favorite albums, ever. I listened to this album during my junior year when I was going through a really tough time. I immediately fell in love with this particular song. I don’t know how many times I’ve listened to it, probably hundreds. It is pure lyrical genius. It’s a lot more intricate than most of the shit of today. But anyways, it’s about a guy and girl and the girl isn’t ready for a relationship. And they’re back and forth, back and forth. And I feel like I’ve been in this exact same spot countless times, especially with one particular person. This song always takes me back and makes me think of where I was at this time in my life. Scared, mad, SO SO confused. It means so much more to me now. But, it still means the same exact thing. Get it?
Eric Church - Livin’ Part of Life
Might honestly be one of my top 5 songs. If I’m ever having a bad day I ALWAYS play this song. It IMMEDIATELY gives me goosebumps and a smile. It reminds me to remember the little things in life. Remember my family, friends and the love that we all share. The little things like sippin’ a beer on the dock or sharing a story with your dad. This song seriously takes me an incredible amount of places. In the end, it reminds me that whatever happened to put me in a bad mood, isn’t really a big deal; and I need to get the hell out of it. Life is too fucking short to be down and out. It’s time to get high on the livin’ part of life.
Counting Crows - Long December
This playlist is such a roller coaster of emotion. Takes me back to Tyler Wilkins going through cancer. I’d play this song to just let my emotions go. And I wish I could say anything else about this song, but it takes me right back there. At my desk, in my room Junior year learning of Tron’s diagnoses, again. This album was my immediately release. So a lot of the songs off of August & Everything After remind me of him. Which, I guess is why I love that album so much. Cancer sucks.
John Butler Trio - I’d Do Anything
Thanks to my brother for this one. Absolutely amazing song in itself. This band is little known and absolutely incredible. He turned me on to it while I was in Italy. That’s actually where I made this playlist, I think. Or at least most of it. I’d fall asleep to my iPod every night because of my snoring roommate. But at the time it really resinated because of the lyrics “I’d do anything to be with you girl”.
Yellowcard - View From Heaven
First heard it from Mik Quinlan. Who lost his brother suddenly, and most definitely tragically on November 11th, 2010. This song is almost perfect for KQ. I absolutely love it. And it IMMEDIATELY reminds me of him and that whole day, week, month. It’s hard to put into words. KQ32 forever.
Justin Moore - If Heaven Wasn’t So Far Away
I know. This playlist is sad. Sorry. It’s what I think about at night. Every night. This song definitely makes me miss my brothers TTW BLW KWQ. But it makes me miss my grandpa even more. I lost him when I was really young, 3. But, I still remember doing a lot of things with him. It just makes me wonder what else we could have done over the last 20 years. What kind of different person I would be because of him? Would my family be any different? This song always makes me think and cherish who I have here.
Thriving Ivory - Angels on the Moon
This oddly gives me hope. “Every days the first of the rest of your life”. The lyrics give me hope to keep on keepin’ on and live every day for those that can’t. I love dreaming, I love doing anything and everything I can. When I hear this song I think of all of the ones that couldn’t do what they wanted to do. So, I’m going to do as much of it as I can for them.
Dave Matthews Band - Proudest Monkey
It took me a minute to figure out what I felt about this song. But it makes perfect sense. I guess I put this song on the list because I was in Italy. Exploring new places, exploring my dreams. I learned so damn much from that experience. And now, it means even more. I’ve traveled all the way down to Ala-freakin-Bama. It basically lays out your day to day emotions of trying out something new. Do I want this new, scary, sometimes hard and extremely exciting life? Or, do I want the life I know, old, same, sometimes exciting and rarely hard. Ehhh I’ll be the monkey out of my tree. I’m not a monkey-see monkey-doer.
Jason Aldean - Days Like These
Love this whole album. But this song always reminds me that there are those absolutely perfect days. Where there’s nothing wrong in your world. When the day seems endless because you have the people you love, some beautiful scenery and just quite possibly something delicious to drink. “Ain’t no time for wastin’ time”. Sure is the truth. These kind of days remind us all that this life is certainly worth living, through the good and the bad.
Uncle Kracker - Good To Be Me ft. Kid Rock
Haha. Well, this is kind of misplaced. But shit, this song makes me happy. And again, it reminds me on a bad day that it’s good to be me! Nothing is ever THAT bad. Just a feel good song.
Zac Brown Band - No Hurry
This is my favorite song off of that album. So simple, so true. Why is everyone in such a hurry every day? You’re not going to get this day back. Take your time, take everything in, enjoy yourself. Even when you’re at work. Enjoy peoples company, enjoy a random conversation, enjoy the fact that YOU HAVE A JOB. Keep it simple. Why be in such a rush to get that promotion? To count down the days for a certain event? Enjoy each and every day that you have. Who knows what one will be your last. So go raise a little hell before you get to heaven.
Thompson Square - Are You Gunna Kiss Me or Not
On the list because it was popular at the time I was in Italy. Not going to defend it at all. I like it. It honestly reminds me of taking a shot. Taking that leap of faith that may or may not work. In the song, it all works out and it’s beautiful. But even if you take the shot and it doesn’t work out, at least you have no regrets. Often times we worry too much about what other people think or how someone will react before making a gut reaction. Sometimes you just can’t think, you have to feel. Do what you feel and you’ll end up alright.
Pearl Jam - Breathe
I don’t know where I heard this first. But it’s my favorite Pearl Jam song. And I think that is saying a lot with the list they have. I love the simplicity of it and the just awesome lyrics. This song takes me all kinds of places. Reminds me of those that I’ve lost, while also reminding me of those that I love, or wildly enough, a combo of them both. Lost & love or love & lost.
Counting Crows - Mrs. Potter’s Lullaby
I know, a lot of Counting Crows. Quite possibly the most genius lyrics in any song ever. Absolutely beautiful use of words and analogies. So simple, so deep. And I think that’s why I love this song. Because it’s exactly like me. Pretty god damn simple, but incredibly deep. Usually more than people know. This is a 7 minute, almost 8 minute song of awesome lyrics. I wish it was more well known. Or do I? Hidden gems are never a bad thing. SO SO SO good.
OAR - Mr. Moon
Since 9th or 10th grade, if I was having a bad night I would always listen to Mr. Moon. OAR is one of my favorite bands and Mr. Moon always resonated with me with having a bad night. A few people know this, and when I put up something with this song in it they assume something is wrong (which is usually right). I always, always, always look up when I’m outside too..so usually at night I’m looking at the moon.
Counting Crows - Murder of One
Yes. All of these songs are basically off of August & Everything After. I didn’t get this song the first few times I heard it. But after a few hundred listens, it makes a whole lot of sense. And no, it didn’t take me that many to get it. Anyways, song is about a guy and a girl who have a connection, but the girl is with the “wrong” guy. Or at least that’s how I see it. And that’s how I usually see it in real life too. Weird that I like this song so much right? ”There’s a bird that nests inside you, sleeping underneath your skin, when you open up your wings to speak, I wish you’d let me in.” Favorite line by far. A lot of people have feelings that sit inside of them without ever telling anyone, especially the person they feel that way about. Why?! Say what you feel. The hurt of the feeling sitting inside of you is far more then anything you will ever feel in return.
Dave Matthews & Tim Reynolds - Old Dirt Hill
Top 3 songs easily. This song makes me remember my childhood. It reminds me of having fun for countless hours after school until we went to sleep and did it all over again. Maybe you had a crush on this girl at school or you kicked the shit out of a bully. Something was always exciting and new. Sometimes I think we lose a lot of these feelings as we get older. Which is horribly sad. I love this song because it takes me back to those days. When I was “just a kid, and that’s what I miss”. Everybody needs to have that beat brought back to them again. I don’t give a shit who you are, everyone has an inner child. And if you don’t then I probably don’t want to be your friend. Bring that beat back to me again!
Keith Urban - Without You
Judge me. I dare you. I hope this is something I can sing to my wife, when I have one of course. It’s a pretty awesome song. Makes me think a lot farther ahead. Really dangerous. And I guess maybe a lot of 23 year olds don’t look THAT far ahead. But I guess I do, deal with it. Shit yes I love partying and all that goes with being young. But I won’t call myself successful until I’ve found the woman of my dreams, a place in this world I love and can call home and two beautiful children. Yeah, I said it.
Jason Aldean - See You When I See You
Always, always, always makes me remember KQ32. I think I had this song on repeat for a week or so afterwards. I know I’m going to see him some other place, some other time. And I know we definitely meet in between in my dreams.
Eli Young Band - Crazy Girl
This might just be one of my favorite country songs. It’s crazy to me that some women don’t know that their “men” don’t love them. Tell whoever you love, that you love them, every day. Every. Day. No phone call should end without I love you, or text, or email, or iMessage, or whatever. How do you know that won’t be the last time you speak to a certain someone? Let it be known! Don’t be a baby.
Dave Matthews & Tim Reynolds - Oh
Best part of this might be the Dave Speak at the beginning. But shit, this is just a good song. A perfect song of how love feels. A thousand different feelings of craziness. But if you’re with that one person, that is ALL that matters. And that one feeling is ALL that matters. “I love you OH so well”.
Dave Matthews Band - I’ll Back You Up
This reminds me specifically of one person. We’ve been in constant contact, no matter what for the past 7-8 years. No matter what she decides or where she decides to go, I’ll back her up. She’s kept me sane for the last few years, and I hope I’ve done the same. “Do as you please, I’ll back you up.”
Dave Matthews Band - Grace is Gone
My ALL TIME FAVORITE SONG. I was already listening to it a lot. But Myrtle Beach 2008 I listened to this about 20 times on repeat. After I heard about Tyler’s diagnosis I needed something to keep me sane. This song is somehow where I found my peace and exited my emotions. It is so weird where we find our comfort in troubled times. But thank god for this song, this is where I found my salvation. Everyone has that song, I know it. It can be such a simple song that provokes such astounding memories. Exactly why I love music.
FM Static - Tonight
How I feel about all of my brothers. TTW. BLW. KWQ. This song always hits home. It always strikes a chord. Let anyone and everyone you love, know. Don’t wait. Tell them whenever you feel it. Whenever you think of them, tell them. They say the word love is misused, but who makes the call? If you feel it, use it.
Dave Matthews & Tim Reynolds - Crash Into Me
Cliche. But easily one of my favorite Dave songs. Gives me goosebumps. One of the first ones I knew by heart and will never forget. I really only like it with Dave and Tim acoustic though. Weirdly, I really only like a lot of the slower songs acoustically. They’re just SO much better. Simple is good. May or may not be played at my wedding. Acoustically of course.
Justin Robinett - Before All The Rocks
My brother also told me about this one. Absolutely beautiful song. Perfect, almost. If I could play guitar and sing, I would sing to this to my future wife. Maybe the guitar part? Anyways, makes me think of now and where I want to be with a relationship. This song is just awesome though. Listened to it countless times in Italy. Over and over and over and over. Funny how I fell weak to a lot of the feelings I had while I was over there. Even more funny, I still have them.
Counting Crows - Round Here
2nd favorite song. No dispute. I love Stodie. I love the 607. This song reminds me of the Valley. And when I say Valley, I definitely mean Canisteo. But I also mean JT, Hornell, Arkport, Alfred. If that isn’t a community, I don’t know what one is. I would sometimes think that I hated that place. How dumb was I?! Probably the most honest, forgiving, beautiful, hard working community around. For the most part. Shit, everyone isn’t perfect. I love that place. Period.
Dave Matthews & Tim Reynolds - Where Are You Going
Also a cliche Dave song. But still one of my favorites. Because sometimes, where you are is where I belong. Doesn’t everyone feel that way? Wherever someone else is, they want to be there? Love this song!
3 Doors Down - Landing in London
This song is lyrically awesome to me. There’s always that someone that pulls you out of the darkness that you’re seeing or feeling. The one person that makes you feel better about the situation, feeling, whatever it may be. But it also makes me think of that person that might be away from someone they love for a long time. It’s taken on different meanings as I’ve done different things and gotten older. I think that’s the definition of a good song!
That’s it. 2 and a half hours of songs. A whole lot of me. I feel so much better. Try writing something if you’re feeling indifferent. Hope you’ve enjoyed this ride. If you have seriously read through this whole thing, you just might know me more than some of my friends. Whoever said reading was a bad thing? Someone has to write it first!